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A slow friday with a very chill weather, im contemplating wheter to take off now or stay on till the bell rings. Being the last day of the 2004 and everyone i see are pretty caught up in making their resolutions and the list of the dos and the donts for next year. Sometimes resolution fails me as i tend to procrastinate or forget about it all along. Matters such as cutting on the sticks, healthy eating habits, save up, i'll just see thru it most of the time. Somethings has got to change i guess...I've a list as well, it not a resolution, its a must do list, lets go!

- Find a new job, thou i did turned down one recently hope there's a
silver lining somewhere next year.
- Try to be home more, mainly for my parents special day, name it bdays or
anniversary.
- Must stop driving recklessly! Must stop driving recklessly! Must stop
driving recklessly! im just a midget comparing to other cars, wait till i get my new wheels, middle of next year, i'allah!
- Save up! shape up!
- Go visit jo in adelaide or holiday with my girlfriends.
- PRAY!

Thats all i could think of thou if i were to put pen to paper bout it, it's gonna be an endless list.

Im collecting old clothes among friends for donation later, the least i can do. On another hand, here's another jolt *shivers*

Thats all peeps...celebrate wisely tonite, stay away from beaches and have a great year starting tmrw! Love you all much!

The fimiliar road where my lifetime passage to get to my auntie's place in tg bungah, to go eat the best mee hoon singapore or even to go shop at the one and only MNG boutique in penang. The aftermath...

Boats in the middle of the road, cars trampling by the road sides, an unexpected site. My school holidays were always spent sleeping over in tg bungah, walking to the beach and having dinner by the road side of the same road where the boats and cars had trampled...a portion of my childhood, washed away by the giant waves.

The b'day dinner was great! finally got to meet Nick and the rest of Jo's family. Ages since i last saw them. Zain, her brother now 14, he's soo tall! i said to him, "i used to carry you when u were a baby" It made me feel so like an auntie² saying that! Anyways, it was nice catching up annually with her...seeing that everyone was still the same friendly people as last time albeit her sibblings all can't speak malay and nick was gaping and pretending to understand bits and pieces of malay but there's jo the translater thou she too struggles sumtimes...hehe

Wished that she had spent more time in KL, but i guess im settled for the little time that we had. Time constraint, flying off to combodia in a few days and settling all her wedding huhas, im lucky that she squeezed us into her schedule. Jo as i always sees her, a very down to earth kind of a person. Jenis rilex gila babi but still she stresses a lot, thats what she says la. But what more could you ask for when you travelled to cambodia in a private plane and soon to have your wedding at a 5-star hotel. i wouldn't complain much, would i?

Ok now to a much more vital thing! How could we be so ignorant yesterday? Happily woke up past noon then la la la off we when to The Curve without knowing that there was an earthquake! Geez...thou gon sms me frm sabah asking about the tsunami, i simply replied..."i dunno" and when my dad was in frantic trying to reach me last nite but it seems that he couldn't get thru *weird*.

While im here unaware of anything till this morning. The pang of queasiness hit me knowing that my parents spent the weekend in ferringhi...i got worried. The first thing i did was called my mum, then my dad! alhamdulillah they're fine. They only spent friday nite in Ferringhi...syukor! syukor! syukor! and everyone else is pretty fine, safe and sound. Thouuuuuuuuuu....nina is still in Phukett *shucks* and i can't get thru to her! I think she's fine! i hope she's fine! i know she's fine! Please let her be fine! I'Allah...

Ok im off and waiting for Nina to come home...!

Most weighty part of everything...efforts and thoughts. And in return, such a simple word is all it takes, even when you have to say it repeatedly. Does it hurt to do so?

Jo is back, gonna meet her later for her birthday dinner, can't wait!

My mind is on you today, Nur Farina...Im not gonna go on and on bout how long we've known each other, coz i know the numbers will keep on counting. During times when i was studying out of penang, and that time also emails and messengers weren't that big, still whenever holidays come, we'll try to make time for each other, you, me and eboo.

Then suddenly out of the blue, she dropped a bomb. Her decisions were so vast and suddenly everything changed. I was worried sick, the first person i mailed was eboo. She felt the same way too, and made me promised that i'll look out for you since she's so far away. Thou i've never told you all these, i'll say it here. We had our doubts too on your well being and some other things, which im sure u know of.

Knowing what you had to go thru all that while, i somehow understood why u made the turn. From there, u worked so very hard. How you used to go from door to door selling the time gold stuff. I remembered all that, coz i followed u once and i was whining about the walking and the heat. While you kept on goin without a complain. Then you met your boyfriend now and again telling you the truth, we had second thoughts bout him. It was all very awkward.

Again all of the sudden there was the sudden shifting to KL, how happy i was knowing that we'll see each other more! Everything went from quick to instant. You both had everything set up and rolling in a blink of an eye. I've had the chance to get to know your other half better, that changes my perception and others too. All i told the rest of the gang was that you are happy and doin well with him, might as well be happy too for them both.

They wanted to tie the knot, but there's a lot of obstacles to get thru to your parents, we cracked our brains on how to tackle your mom first over this matter. You made urself a dateline, by this new year everything must be in open. So i've been waiting eversince when sunddenly last sunday you called me to break the news that you've told your mom everything and she's ok bout it *yay* but the dad is still not aware of the matter. Don't worry babe! im sure your dad will soften up and support you all the way, since he knows that you are doin very well now. He gently pulled out my wisdom tooth when u asked him for me, im sure he'll be gentle too when he knows bout it and take it real well.

I was glad, happy and feeling everything all at once, knowing 5 of my goodfrens will be wedded next year...but i still have zetty and yati and the rest on the same boat with me. And to top all that up, i was flattered when it was me you called the first to break the news!

Babe, you are made of steel la, and i salute you for that! Gonna love you long-long time!

Not often i discuss my personal experience over here. I dun talk much bout boyfriends, relationships, break ups and making ups, u get me right? The whole deal of being in love or even out of love. All the sugar coated talks that makes your knees trembles and dun forget the butterflies in the tummy thingy.

Oh ok let's skip the mushy-mushy part...all i wanna say is that, im glad to get myself out of the long-long relationship that i once had. During the ending of it till now, i got very independant in dealing with life. Yes, its a self proclaimed statement but who cares. Will not elaborate more as people tend to get very jumpy thou no names were mentioned haha...

So now, lets just look forward for the weekends, then the new year and so forth. We made plans for NY but i think the plan backfired on us due to the weather and now i can just imagine how the guys will laugh tmrw when we tell them. It's gonna be next year then, we'll proof it that we can talk the talk ok!


dd was supposed to be castrated sometime bek but now that they've forgotten all about it, im happy! or else i'll be on protest and dd will have an indentity crisis from being a commando to a fashion designer!

And now...friday please come quick!

Tonite it's futsal nite after so long, Ramadhan break plus the raya hols. Am gonna see a new fimiliar face, swear i'll try not to laugh. I'll try...*grin*